Dear God: Heal the hearts of those who have been hurt by people who follow religion

Dear God: Heal the hearts of those who have been hurt by people who follow religion and not you. As long as I can remember, I’ve loved to read. Around 13 that turned into a love of reading the Bible.

I was raised in a very strict, methodical religion, that cultivated a relationship with God and fear of the demons. I enjoyed reading Ezekiel, Revelation and many of the “lesser known” prophets and people were drawn to me.

While I gladly shared what I learned with others, even as a child I couldn’t understand why people wouldn’t pick up the Bible for themselves. As I got older, I examined the teachings of the Talmud, the Torah, the Koran – anything I could get my hands on that pointed to a Creator.

It gave me the ability to see people in the Bible as flesh and blood characters. It trained my mind to be able to relate to them the way I relate to people I know in person. When I was 24, I became pregnant with my daughter out of wedlock. I was kicked out of the religion and disowned by my family.

I was removed from the circle of people I had known for more than half of my life. That was by far one of the most difficult yet profound times in my life. I had no friends.  I had no family.  I had no one.

Once I was abandoned by everyone else, I felt that God had abandoned me too. I couldn’t bring myself to pray, because of my egregious sin. I thought God felt about me, the way I was being treated by those claiming to serve him.


I was wrong.

I remember when my daughter was a few months old and I felt helpless, alone and confused. As many times as I picked my Bible up, I would put it down. But, I wanted to be able to speak to God again. He was my friend and I missed him more than I missed my family.

I finally prayed again.

And while it didn’t happen in an instant, soon I came to realize that my greatest sin was not being an unwed mother.

My greatest sin was leaving God.

I allowed my experiences with a religious organization to cause me to see God in a pervered way. I honestly thought he was ashmamed of me and didn’t love me.

Someone reading this is feeling condemned, certain that God won’t forgive them yet again. God wants you to know that he is compassionate and while he abhors sin, he loves YOU.

Inside or outside of the walls of a church.

Don’t allow people to deprive you from the most important relationship in your life. Turn to God in prayer and you will find that despite what any person has ever done to you – he’s always been right there!

And he won’t ever leave.

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Dear God: Heal the hearts of those who have been hurt by people who follow religionSuncera Johnson aka That Writing Chic is a freelance writer and former freelance producer and editor for MTV Networks.  A former freelance writer for Rolling Out Magazine . She is currently the CEO of   and the author . She loves the Lord. The rest of her time is spent with her family and writing, writing, writing, and more writing.